Hi everyone

I just joined the forum today, and the first thing I want to do is share my experience from last year with any of you out there who are suffering the pain of losing a baby.

Last May I found out that I was expecting and was delighted. My partner and I began to talk about the baby (even nicknamed him/her Ickle Bean), made plans and even bought a travel system. Unfortunately, when I went for my 12 week scan the baby did not have a hearbeat, and had died at 9 weeks 3 days.

The period that followed has to be one of the most painful experiences of my life, the loss I felt was like nothing I had been through before. To make matters worse, I opted for a medical rather than surgical procedure which was not successful and I ended up rushed into theatre with massive blood loss and had to have a surgical procedure to 'evacuate' my baby. It was one of the hardest things I ever had to cope with.

When I fell pregant again in October I was terrified of going through the same thing again, every time I went to the loo I was checking for blood, constantly anxious and felt like I could't accept that I was having a baby in case I had to lose it again. I'm 16 weeks now, and had a healthy scan three weeks ago, and have just started to feel the baby's first movements.

I just want to tell you that I understand how awful it is to lose a baby, but I firmly believe that things are all supposed to happen for a reason, and if I hadn't been through my painful experience then I wouldn't be where I am today.

Wishing you love and luck for the future.... and a friendly ear to anyone that would like to get in touch.

Claire x x

 

 

omg in tears!!! bloomin hormones!!! x x im happy you feel so much better now and so happy you are feeling your baby move now i know its a great feeling cant wait to feel my baby move hehe!! x x x x

 

thankyou for sharing your experience.. i cant imagine how hard that must have been for you x

 

I must admit that it is easier to share now that I am pregnant again - in the months following my miscarriage I was a mess, everything from colleagues bringing their babies into the office to Pampers adverts had me in pieces. And to be honest, any opportunity to take something positive from the situation is a good thing - even if it's just sharing with other people and hoping that it at least helps to ease the pain for one other person.

 

Thank you for sharing. I'm so sorry for your loss x