Well the witch has still to appear but think she has definately caught me this month.

I had really bad cramps in my back and stomach yesterday and feel really tired.

I went to the loo and i have a streak of brown spotting so think this could be AF about to start

I will just have to stay positive and hope that next month is finally my month

Feeling really down today. Took a CBD this morning and came back negative.

Could hardly sleep last night thinking about it and although i kind of knew that this wasn't going to be my month, i was secretly wishing that i would get magically pregnant.

I think its my own fault as well- haven't really been trying too hard on the BD front. But i think next month we will have more luck, really going to put in the effort, no matter how tired i am.

OH has been ok...

She's still here! When I woke up this morning I found that she had been a bit more generous with her bounty than I would have liked but at least I know that she is well and truly around. I've had to take a day off work as the cramping is dreadful and I've been so dizzy that trying to carry trays and drinks (I work in a cafe) is not something that I think I should be doing today, lol.

Not sure when I should take the date of my cycle starting from though. Should it be when I started bleeding...

At last! Af has arrived finaly and properly. It's a lot lighter than I'm used to but then when I was on the pill, my periods were very very heavy so this is probably normal.

Hopefully this means that we can try TTC properly once it is over. I made sure I waited to see if it carried on untill i posted seeing as last time I thought AF had turned up, she buggered off the same evening, lol.

Looking forward to my first proper month trying to make a baby. I don't know...

On the bus on my way to work and felt like doing an entry. I love this journal facility, it's really nice to be able to just write down your thoughts whenever you feel like it. I want to copy all these entries down onto paper so that I can have a hard copy that I can go back and read in the future and maybe pass on to someone. Maybe I'll pop into WHSmith when I've been paid.

Anyway. Still no sign of AF or anything to indicate what is going on with my body. Feeling better than yesterday...